false hope.

The moment when our hands met, and you grabbed it. So many feelings was thrust upon me, so i held on tighter, only for you to throw my hands away. Is that what's going to happen now?

I spent all last night wondering how I was suppose to tell you, you have no idea how scared i am of losing you. Only for it to be okay when i did tell you. I teared up a little, how you responded was great. I'm grateful that you are my friend. Though it was only through words, it was hard to tell how you really felt. I keep wondering if i was selfish telling you, or if i was better off not telling you. But the lies would have soon ate me away.

I feel so much lighter now that everything is better. I was absolutely scared last night. My mind was fuzzy, my stomach was nauseous, my heart was beating fast. My brother asked me, what i am going to do now. If i am really just going to get rid of these feelings? if i could? What if he likes me?

I honestly haven't thought of that yet, and i guess whatever happens happens. As long as he is happy, i guess i am too.