Now that, that's over, where does that place me? Do i want to come out and tell you? Will that make what we have better? What if it destroys everything? I don't want my feelings to get in the way of friendship. What if these feelings are only in my head?
I told myself, that if you are happy, I am happy, because that's all I really need. Is it okay to be selfish and tell you, so that I won't be hurt like this anymore? I hate seeing you with other girls, I hate other girls staring at you. I'm jealous, and that's not something I'm use to feeling. Should i tell you so you can shut me down, and I can finally move on? What if our friendship changes after that?
I feel like I'm walking on a layer of thin ice with you. One wrong step and i could crash and drown. I'm suffocating, i want to tell you so much, but these feelings are holding me back. I'm starting to lie to you. Is it really what's best for you?
I'm so lost. Someone please find me. I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
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