I haven't done anything wrong.

I try to make up for the people I've hurt by being nice. Because there are honestly a lot of things i don't mean to say that just comes out so wrong. And that look on their face. Even though i pretend like nothing happened, i know that i hurt you, and it's eating me away too. I'm not good with interacting with people, and talking to people so i tend to be blunt. I honestly try so hard to make up for this awful trait of mines to act irrationally and say these horrible things, by being nice and doing nice things. I like seeing people smile, it puts me in a good mood. If you do something good, it causes a chain reaction thing right? then why do i get accuse of leading people on, and acting fake? Why can't i win either way? Is there something wrong with me?